It's a beautiful day!!!
I am so annoyed last nite but then was calmed by a good listener, a great sister indeed! I thank God for such a great grandma who cares and loves so much, and yet I still complain! I tried not to, but it damaged me greater. . .
I talked to Carrie on the phone when she was about to talk to me. I think she waited about 20 minutes or half an hour. . . she complaint that i talked around an hour or hour and a half! I tried to explain to her, to let her know what's going on. Instead she will not listen. She adviced me to manage my time better, shall not miuse my time as I have to study and work, as well as time for God. She would said that I time is money, etc. . . if I fail again, I would have to go home. . . I told her going home might be better.
Then she started talking about soikou and soilauie, the complain of talking over the phone for a long period of time, we are talking about an hour or so. . . I tried to explain, she wouldn't accept. Then I compalint in my mind. . . what about the time wasted to listen to you? When I shared with a friend over the phone, it enlighten me. It's one type of fellowship. Listening to grandma? I couldn't talk, coz she has so much in her mind to talk about although she had mentioned it before. When I respond with story or whatsoever, she would fall asleep. All I have when listening to her is giving her my time, and she didn't worry about my time wasted there. . . hElLO!!!
Arrghh... However, able to give her some time of mine is something I would like to do, occasionally. Just please at the right time. . . I know she need companion, she is just feeling lonely. Sometimes I wonder how long can I stand it, how long will I be so selfish, how long does it take to make myself appreciate her more? I admit I got upset very easily with her. I couldn't handle myself when I respond her comment about my family or the family.
God do help me. I am so guilty of all this, I lost control, act immature. . . Thank God there is a listener, a great sister that comfort me and calm me down.
The happy stuf!!!
I woke up pretty early this morning. Decided to play basket or netball, well, walked to the court and got no ball to play with, so ended up jogging+walking *grin* Good stuff is I felt fresh!
Then Andrew message me. . . what I have been waiting for. He seems to change towards maturity. He is going to teach english to primary students, after me *wink* he agreed to get mom rose for me for her bday. . . then got sms from olym. . . wonderful. . .
Met Grace on the way to the library. . . another sister that I thank God for. She would listen and comfort. She is a darling, too *smile* She would join us for Basket ball. . .another thing that add up the happiness *wink*
What completes the day???!!!
I am feeling so LOVED!!! Got the love greeting from mom, andrew, olym and family. . .
Showed love from friends and family around me. . . grandma, too.
My life is so BLeSsEd!!! I couldn't ask for more. . . ThQ Lord, all I can say is thQ Lord! I feel His presence so real! COuldn't explain, it is something inside me that I treasure the most!!!
Beautiful Day!!! |